Thursday, August 19, 2010

Common Ground

There are some lessons I have learned

Somewhere in the years between

Believing I’d grow up to be a princess

And discovering life can be mean.


I’ve encountered, all along my way,

Women of every variety.

From the tall, and thin, and handsome,

To the very dregs of society.


Beginning at a quite young age:

The girls who grew up too fast,

Troublemakers, the cripplingly shy,

Those at recess always picked last.


Teenagers evolving into women,

Some nerdy, some slutty, some jocks.

Some cling desperately to the familiar,

Some refuse to be put in a box.


In college, a collection of roommates:

Bookworms, intellectuals seeking power,

The clinically psychotic,

A hippie needing reminders to shower.


Transitioning into adulthood,

Many responsibly charge ahead,

Others, lazy, afraid, or downtrodden

Take their time to grow up instead.


Not all women have bad tempers,

Not all ladies flirt in excess,

Not all girls become bad drivers,

And they don’t all PMS.


In spite of remarkable differences,

The many paths that we try,

One truth is universally female:

Girls aren’t pretty when they cry.

Clockwork

Regular as clockwork

Though not so constant

You flit into my life

My sometime companion

Then vanish as though

You were a phantom

Or the sweetest of dreams

But you always appear

When the clouds begin

To roll across my sky

And bring with your smile

Just enough rays of the sun

To allow me to see

In the reflection of your eyes

Myself, as I stand

And I am not alone

And I am not afraid

And I am not weak

And when my strength

Is rejuvenated

To the point where I

Can continue alone

You depart, leaving behind

Vague promises

Which leave me hopeful

Though somewhat empty

For promises cannot hold me

And promises cannot carry me

And promises cannot comfort me

For long.

Winter Formal, Freshman Year

Echoes across time

Have dimmed

But can still be heard

Twelve years removed


Dishonesty, humiliation

Still cuts to the heart of me

Renewed with every glance

From a well-meaning man


You did not have me long,

A tenuous grasp, at best,

Yet even pale scars

Prove the surface has been broken


A young girl’s insecurities

Born in one night

A grown woman’s fears

Bourne for twelve years

Guilty

I should begin with an apology

For an apology is in order

Gentle soul, gentle heart

The only one I know I’ve hurt


I should tell you now

For I didn’t then

Your patience and tenderness

Have always stayed with me


I should seek more clearly

For the kindness you possess

Perhaps my rocky path

Would be easier to follow


I should give you more credit

For credit is due

What little confidence I have

Can be traced to my days with you

Truth or Dare

What do you do when the sad songs come true?

What comforting words do you sing?

Where do you turn when the roads all converge?

What hope does the morning light bring?


Who can you trust when their backs all are turned?

How far do you reach out your hand?

Do you cry? Beg? Beguile? Do you force a fake smile?

Are you left frozen there where you stand?


Where can you go when the doors have all closed?

Whose porch do you sink down onto

When the pillars you’ve leaned on collapse into dust,

And all that’s left standing is you?

Music Man

We met beneath the stormy skies of winter

And were so quickly swept away

It took two years to truly draw my breath


There was music,

The kind to stir your soul, and mine,

Together they danced

Together they sang

But mine was being led


The roads flew beneath us

We took the turns as one

The chorus swelled, the harmonies

Drove me to distraction


And through it all, my eyes were closed

Shut against what was

Shut against what was coming


The reverb brought me crashing down

Broken, on the ground, my eyes finally opened

I realized the music was gone


Gone the melodies

Gone the wind in my hair

Gone the steps I had worked so long to master


And in the silence

pain

April Evening

Shattered

Post-midnight silence

Your words, confessional

Sifted through a mask

Devoid of light

Feel the darkness dance across your skin and know

You are safe

In this moment

With this girl

Who sees you

Through the mask

Through the darkness

Through the smile you wear

Through all the world has heaped upon you

This girl

Whose heart is bruised

Would love you if

If

She could feel as safe

With you.